Sunday, February 19, 2006

I'm Tired, I'm Busy - I Just Want To Sleep . . .

This is going to be one of those posts that I write for me. Nothing of much value, just to say that I have been really busy and just want to relax.

Work has been really stressing me out. It is hard for me to go with a smile when we have been in the city news (this is Houston - it's not small) almost all week b/c of an abduction that ended up being false and the continuous fights. DH tells me almost every day to quit and stay at home . . . it is hard to come up with a good argument against him when it gets this bad. My stresses include (but are not limited to):
~ I had to take initiative to call one of my teachers that hasn't been at work for three weeks due to his future FIL having a stroke and confront him about whether or not he would be returning, etc. The situation is not good, he will not be back (considered "job abandonment" - bad), and I am now responsible for his classes (and grades), too.
~ It appears that many of my staff members will be leaving at the end of the year and there are several problems that have been handled amongst themselves that are now hitting the wall.
~ We are overdrawn on the budget!!!!! This is out of our control b/c our enrollments are higher than ever before and we have thousands of dollars in student fees not being collected from students that came to our school from the hurricane(s) displacement.
~ I have had no planning time b/c the DC duties are taking over my time. We are doing sweeps of the hallways daily b/c students won't go to class and just wonder. You would be amazed how many kids we catch in these.
~ We had a big presentation at school this week that weighed me down that my students did not take seriously b/c they just seem to not care!
~ I was unable to be at the computer Thursday & Friday and have 50 serious emails that contain some form of work that I need to get to.
~ Grades are due Monday and I am behind . . .

At home, things are good and we are having a great time as a family. My portion of the taxes needs to be completed and it is really stressing me out! I maintain an "at home business" as a hobbyist with Creative Memories (notice how serious I am, since I have not mentioned it before - some of the ladies that do this are very "overwhelming"). B/c DH works international, his company hires accountants to complete our taxes. It is wonderful service to have, but it means I have to get all my business stuff together and complete those forms to submit. They are not that hard to do, just time consuming, and DH rides my ass about getting them done sooner, rather than later. This is hard to do with him gone, us being sick, and having two kids . . . stressful! My goal is to have it done by tomorrow night. So, I should be working that, but I have been doing it the past three hours and can't do any more without my head exploding :)

On the positive side, there are several job openings that interest me available. I just need to find the time to fill out the applications, spruce up the resume, etc. Damn - it is hard to find time when I am already behind on every thing else, but it is important b/c I would be happier (hopefully) with a new job.

I want to be happier.

Last night I slept wrong and my left shoulder and neck are all messed up. I can barely turn my head. Personally, I think some of it is stress related b/c of my past neck problems. Who am I kidding, I know it is stress related . . . I am just trying to not stress about stress . . . it's a vicious cycle - LOL!

6 comments:

momma of 2 said...

Wow - and I think I have stress.

Something to think about...is it worth it? I'll be keeping you in my thoughts, sending good vibes your way....Hang in there...too bad you can't take a 4 month sabbatical, and then not renew your contract for next year.

Mama Beck said...

Sometimes in the most vicious and powerful pressures, the right path seesm to illuminate itself....I hope you get a breather soon... isn't spring break coming up or something?

Anonymous said...

I've tried to do Home Interiors on the side. But, the ladies involved in that are also very overwhelming. So, I can relate on that one.

Hang in there. And, I hope it eases up somehow and soon.

Anonymous said...

You need to prioritze and truly only concern yourself about the most essential things. Not that the less important things will go away, they will be, well, less important!

eyes_only4him said...

email me..i moved...

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Christina

Becky said...

Yeah, you definitely have a lot on your plate, my dear. Are you actually an administrator?

Everytime I see the other Becky's comment, I have to re-read it to make sure I didn't say it the last time I clicked over:)