New blogger to "find" myself . . .

Well, I have a really close friend that has been blogging for a long time. I read her multiple blogs all the time and keep telling myself that I need to start one of my own. Today is the day! Not that there is anything special about this moment, I am sitting here at my laptop, while Loo plays with her Care Bears and LoCo sleeps in his carrier.

I am happy that I have taken the leap. My family is a big-time TiVo family. Every day I record Oprah - I know - Oprah - but, she does have some great show topics. On Monday, October 31st the show was "Have you let yourself go?".

http://www2.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/200510/tows_past_20051031.jhtml

I had to really think about this topic, b/c to be honest I don't really feel that I have let myself "go" b/c I have always been a, what I would call, "low-maintenance" person. I rarely wear make-up, don't blowdry my hair, and only own a push-up bra b/c my loving husband really likes it! Then I started to listen to the other women talk, "I put my children before myself", "I don't always like what I see in the mirror", etc. HHHHHMMMMM . . . maybe, I should think about this a little more.

To be honest, I don't put much weight into how I feel right now, b/c I just had a baby (he's just shy of 6 weeks old) and hormones are a wicked thing. One minute happy, the next really sad - you know what I am talking about! But, the more I think about it, the more I know that I need to find the "new" me. I am hanging on to another person that I am different from (not much, but I have two kids now, a mortgage, a career, etc.). Okay, so I admit it . . . I did let myself go, too. Just not to the extreme that some of these Oprah women.

Defining/figuring out who I am, should be a great experience! There are a few things that I know, but I am going to enter a new world of journaling to explore and find myself. Many of the questions and prompts I use will be from O's website - they force you think deeper and help you discover who you are now.